SanguinettiMods Posted October 7, 2012 Share Posted October 7, 2012 These writings can range anywhere from a paragraph to a page. Here is where I will let my mind free, to type whatever I will. Most of it probably won't be 100% coherent because I'm not writing stories here, I'm venting my emotions in the form of ASCII characters. Some of it may be very sad, being that this is a major part of my life, so if that bothers you, I suggest you turn away. If you're interested in reading anything that I have posted, please, by all means, continue, and I would like to hear feedback. Now without further procrastination, I will begin. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ October 7th, 2012. 2:37 AM. Sinking slowly into the endless abyss of nature that we call our life, filled with emotions that devour ourselves. Crying with all of our hearts, hoping that fear and pain will end. Seeing the brighter side of things with a new sense of motivation and spirit, trying to live each day as if we have a chance to start over and forget our past mistakes. We see our old enemies as new friends and tighten the bond between old ones. Wondering if a life of joy can really end. Painful memories of old pasts taint the opportunity to refresh our souls with the feeling of a renewed hope and the sensation of the fullest love. Curious as to how it feels to not know the hatred and suffering that goes on around the world, cannot help but to feel that anything would be better. We keep saying that it will get better, that there will always be a brighter side, that nothing can get too dark. This is ultimately what will happen. Some believe that what they believe will always conquer their doubts, others let their doubt envelop them and that is when they can truly never be happy. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ October 7th, 2012. 7:02 PM. Blowing along with the cold autumn wind, my mind is whisked away from me in the form of anger and fear. Retrieval of my sanity is possible, yet difficult to achieve. Within the grasp of an unseen force my emotions are crushed and turned into dust, though at the very least, this rules out the possibility of fear and anxiety. Why do I strive to go on, I ask myself. What makes me feel the need to live. I would believe the curiosity of what will happen next. My life is a constant drama filled with plot twists at every corner and every day something new may happen. Though happiness is something I'd like to feel there are things that must come before. Any upset will eventually settle, much like ripples in a pond will eventually fade. Old scarring memories of the past will become faint images that bear us no meaning and ancient feelings of fear will completely disappear. Feelings and emotions can be two different things. Within a numbing cold we would lose something, Beside an elegant fire that something could be replaced. A future is what I look forward to, but sometimes it is relatively hard to believe that something better will come out of it. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SanguinettiMods Posted January 3, 2013 Author Share Posted January 3, 2013 January 2nd, 2013. Death, Sorrow, Agitation. They don't have to matter in my life anymore. Time presses on, ignoring my being, headed towards it's ultimate destination. Needless to say, I like it better that way, not drawing attention to myself. Seeing faces go by, potential friends, or not, I believe one will not just pass by without making a connection. Singing in the warmth and spirit of my renewed meaning. I'm feeling that crying is flushing out the sadness that I wish not to feel. While unnecessary, I say that nobody can make an impression on anything but themselves. Space, Time, Nature, these aren't things that can be manipulated or attempted without consequences. Most of us take that for granted. I'd say, Let's not. Feeling a sense of renewed faith and belief of healing. This makes me happy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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